The Year of Living Dangerously

Saving My Own Life

It has been one hell of a time in my journey. This past year I have been journaling and preparing to write again. I am beginning here within my personal blog.

I have 3 blogs: Blogger (Tiny Notes from Athena), Wordpress (Women To Watch Arizona) and Medium (The Burning Times). My media business had to be put on hold as I rebuild my life.

How to get started writing again after the trauma of leaving a sociopathic, gaslighting narcisist with an arsenal of guns, ammo and knives and almost being killed, has been very hard beyond any words. I have an amazing therapist and survivor group that is now a big part of my weekly schedule of healing, this is how I know for sure what it is clearly like to survive a "Ted Bundy" type of person for decades.  

I have been diagnosed with PTSD and trauma from being beat up and deeply bruised head to toe. My head was smashed several times and I blacked out. While I fought back to save my life my body was terribly hurt. The struggle to get back on my feet and restore my work has taken it's toll. 

I started first by finally being able to create my art (ArtbyJilly) in freedom, and to express myself without fear. After moving several times to safe, secret places to live, I am still planning what is next. When I escaped I was in a t-shirt and shorts with no purse or shoes. 

Those clothes were ripped and torn badly and I have been living on less than 5 cents a day at this point in time. Much of my documentation has been on my facebook pages as I have been recovering. Rebuilding my trust within a wonderful new circle of friends has been a priority while I take care of myself first. 

After decades of having to dim my light to survive, I do not have to do that anymore. All of this will not be in vain. My learning curve is helping others find their own courage as the #MeToo Movement grows. Below is a photo from Judith Mariner's Studio with a very fine group of artists I am honored to collaborate with now as we create our work. This door opened as I closed the door on the past.

   

The purpose of this post is to get started again on my writing. My past story of being told to stop on a daily basis, before being brutally attacked, will be helping others as I create my future story of thriving. 

This has been a year of living dangerously after a lifetime of survival and sleeping with the enemy within a marriage. This was not my fault. Sociopath's are attracted to light, vulnerability and things thay want to own, these personality types have no empathy or compassion, they are never what they seem.  

Namaste' and Thank you,

Jilly Jesson

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The Notorious RBG

Ruth Bader Ginsburg

“I ask no favors for my sex, all I ask of my brethren, is that they take their feet off our necks!”

~Notorious RBG

A Woman Of Substance 

Does Lunch

Who will join her?

Quietly moving and flowing underneath all the darkness that is top of mind right now are patient, tenacious smart women who have been preparing, writing, working and creating for 20 - 40 years and more to take up the reins of gender equality and womens rights. Since Ruth Bader Ginsburg knew first hand about discrimination, she set the tone the Supreme Court needed to begin a shift in the law which is the only thing that counts in the real world of commerce and business that touches everyone's lives. 

"In 2018, Ginsburg expressed her support for the #MeToo movement, which encourages women to speak up about their experiences with sexual harassment.^[91] She told an audience, "It's about time. For so long women were silent, thinking there was nothing you could do about it, but now the law is on the side of women, or men, who encounter harassment and that's a good thing."^[91] She also reflected on her own experiences with gender discrimination and sexual harassment, including a time when a chemistry professor at Cornell unsuccessfully attempted to trade her exam answers for sex.^[91]"   Wikipedia

Visionaries knew this time was coming and have been preparing the foundation of solid consciousness, work ethic and education along with their daughters and granddaughters. Forward thinking men are aligning with the knowledge that women are leading the way to the next evolution that Marianne Williamson called a "Renaissance" in 1997. 

We Are Joining Her! 

Nosh and Chat Beverage Hour
 "Wit and Wine" Tote Bags  by ArtbyJilly.com

Women of all ages are ready to do lunch in spirit with Ruth Bader Ginsburg and take action, who are they? 
Who do you suggest? 

I think of the 12 Apostles of the Women's Renaissance beginning with SCOTUS. 

There are threads of courage, strength, family difficulty, understanding of purpose, and talented discipline inside each of the biography's linked to these women of all ages. The archetypes show up as each woman advises our women leaders now and our women friends sitting at the table next to us. 

My new book list includes these amazing women I need to learn more about: 

1) Sonia Sotomayor

2) Elena Kagan

3) Sandra Day O'Conner

4) Gloria Steinem

5) Emma Watson

6) Oprah Winfrey

7) Malala

8) Billie Jean King

9) Michelle Obama

10) Madeleine Albright

11) Marianne Williamson

12) Jean Houston

Women of Wisdom do Lunch

We get together almost weekly for intimate friendship and nourishment!
Women To Watch Arizona

This summer the amazing women in my neighborhood sphere will continue our salon's lunches, wine Wednesdays and fun get togethers now inspired by the fabulous Ruth Bader Gindsburg film now in theaters and these stories. 

In Tucson, Arizona the film is showing at The Loft  Cinema and I will have a review soon...Join us!

To go along with this theme I have created my new 

"Women Who Lunch" by Jilly Jesson Smyth fine art series I hope you enjoy as much as I do!

Much Moksha XOXO Jilly

JillyJessonSmyth.co

New Never Boring

Believe

2018: The Year of the "Yang Dog"

We have moved from the year of the Fire Rooster into the year of the Earth Dog, a time of "interrupting the interrupters" with Yang energy to strengthen the earthquake now happening in earth's humanity. 

My wire haired dachshund speaks to me at this point in my essay. Miss Frida was named after the artist Frida Kahlo, she was full of powerful wisdom bursting forth with exactly what she knew was important and needed at any moment. She lived out loud and her nick name was "Frida Buddha" for her big loving eyes full of old soul knowledge.

Dachshunds are also known as "Rat Dogs", they can smell and find a rat in any environment. Miss Frida could always find the cockroach in any room or bug in any yard. I believe this is what is happening now. What used to be just a bad smell gracious people ignored is now a rotten mess that must be raised and removed to no longer infect our next generation. 

Building Community

The #MeToo, #Enough, #TimesUp and 2018 Women's March schedule now in process is powerful. To support each other rise into our highest ambitions and talents, we need to collaborate with all of our voices and play a better game. 

Makers Conference

Women are leading the way and rising to our highest selves. The way to change is to be in charge. Being in charge means setting an example of female leadership for our girls to learn from, we need equality plus knowing how powerful our female energy is as mentors.

"The world is waking up. We all feel it. On every continent, in every industry, at every level, women are raising their voices and taking charge like never before. The 2018 MAKERS Conference will take this movement to the next level. We'll explore new ways to make shock waves, unleash our collective power, and lift each other up as we fight for causes that matter."

Did you know that 1.59 billion people are ready to either stay behind or move forward on the largest interactive platform on the planet, Facebook? 

All this has happened since the movie "Enough" came out in 2002. Technology for the people has had to catch up with the  reality that has only recently been identified and confirmed by the medical community as irrational gaslighting, a narcissistic behavior that does not make sense and never will. 

This behavior is not OK 
We have to own that we allowed this to happen by not supporting our sisters in the workplace and at home. 

ENOUGH:

"Working-class waitress Slim (Jennifer Lopez) finds her life transformed when she marries wealthy contractor Mitch (Billy Campbell). She settles into an idyllic suburban life and seems to have everything she wants. Her dream is shattered when she discovers her husband is anything but perfect. His abusive behavior forces her to go on the run, eluding an increasingly obsessive Mitch and his lethal henchman."

Release date: May 21, 2002 (USA) Director: Michael Apted Featured song: Alive

Music composed by: David Arnold Screenplay: Nicholas Kazan