The Year of Living Dangerously

Saving My Own Life

It has been one hell of a time in my journey. This past year I have been journaling and preparing to write again. I am beginning here within my personal blog.

I have 3 blogs: Blogger (Tiny Notes from Athena), Wordpress (Women To Watch Arizona) and Medium (The Burning Times). My media business had to be put on hold as I rebuild my life.

How to get started writing again after the trauma of leaving a sociopathic, gaslighting narcisist with an arsenal of guns, ammo and knives and almost being killed, has been very hard beyond any words. I have an amazing therapist and survivor group that is now a big part of my weekly schedule of healing, this is how I know for sure what it is clearly like to survive a "Ted Bundy" type of person for decades.  

I have been diagnosed with PTSD and trauma from being beat up and deeply bruised head to toe. My head was smashed several times and I blacked out. While I fought back to save my life my body was terribly hurt. The struggle to get back on my feet and restore my work has taken it's toll. 

I started first by finally being able to create my art (ArtbyJilly) in freedom, and to express myself without fear. After moving several times to safe, secret places to live, I am still planning what is next. When I escaped I was in a t-shirt and shorts with no purse or shoes. 

Those clothes were ripped and torn badly and I have been living on less than 5 cents a day at this point in time. Much of my documentation has been on my facebook pages as I have been recovering. Rebuilding my trust within a wonderful new circle of friends has been a priority while I take care of myself first. 

After decades of having to dim my light to survive, I do not have to do that anymore. All of this will not be in vain. My learning curve is helping others find their own courage as the #MeToo Movement grows. Below is a photo from Judith Mariner's Studio with a very fine group of artists I am honored to collaborate with now as we create our work. This door opened as I closed the door on the past.

   

The purpose of this post is to get started again on my writing. My past story of being told to stop on a daily basis, before being brutally attacked, will be helping others as I create my future story of thriving. 

This has been a year of living dangerously after a lifetime of survival and sleeping with the enemy within a marriage. This was not my fault. Sociopath's are attracted to light, vulnerability and things thay want to own, these personality types have no empathy or compassion, they are never what they seem.  

Namaste' and Thank you,

Jilly Jesson

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Re-Set "A Woman for All Seasons"

Ruth Bader Ginsburg Talks Past and Future at Resnick Aspen Action Forum

“I consider myself tremendously fortunate because the kind of things I have said are things women have been saying forever,” Ginsburg told the crowd. “But earlier societies were not yet prepared to listen.”

Why a Re-Set 

Today I thank God for the wisdom of women thinkers on the Supreme Court Ruth Bader Ginsberg, Sonia Sotomayor, Elena Kagen and Sandra Day O'Conner. 

The grounding and balance we need now comes from smart women in law who have had to work within a "bad old days" system to understand how one needs to complain and speak up against injustice, discrimination, harassment and sexual perversion. Speaking up does not mean you are a victim, it means you are courageous and bring light to reveal wrong doing and poor decision making. Darkness and evil comes to those who will do something and correct the injustice. 

Women need to be role models and set and example in order to rise for our daughters, co-workers, families and future. 

The Lily Ledbetter case is an example:        

“But sometimes a defeat can end up being a huge victory,” Ginsburg said. “I was in that fortunate position in the Lily Ledbetter case.” The Court had ruled against Ledbetter due to the majority’s interpretation of Title VII’s statute of limitations. While she believed an egregious mistake had been made, Justice Ginsburg left it up to Congress to correct the error. This led to the creation of the Lily Ledbetter Fair Pay Act, a law prohibiting sex-based wage discrimination. It was the first act signed by then-President Barack Obama.

Retreating from a difficult situation or person does have the result of not giving the darkness energy, but retreating and also including being aware of one's responsibility in being chosen to handle the problem is a gift to growth. This is a wake up call to not hiding in the sand and rising to our highest potential as humans. 

I Stand With Our Future: Girls

Are you shaping the future with your decisions or retreating from learning what conscious communication and radical empathy will do for our world? It all begins in our neighborhoods and with our neighbors. 

There is a reason this has been the summer of our discontent and a reset on how this year of bully behavior came to be is needed. 

Mouse people need to become Tiger people.

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My good friend and Akashic Advisor Linda Joy Stone sent me an email about the "Rupture" we are now going through and how it is a predictor of the "Rapture" awaiting. As the shift and flow reset is upon us, it is vital that we are aware as we are uncomfortable.

After the Total Solar Eclipse, the timing of hurricane after hurricane, raging wildfires, floods and ICBMs it feels super crazy. The earth's temper is also reflected in people around us. We come together as we fall apart. Climate change is real. 

The journey continues upward, as we are aware that there are beings lifting us in loving hands for our evolution.

As my mentor Dr. David Simon said: "Attention! Attention!"

“It’s all about love. It’s always been about love. Love is the only thing that’s real.”

Much Moksha Strength... 

your path is our journey together  

XOXO Jilly
@JillyWisdom
@JillJessonSmyth

   

Why March?

Strength in Synergy, Diversity and Passion

This year I have felt the power of the feminine in collaboration as we are faced with a new unexpected challenge. What does this mean? 

I have observed that many of us have been too comfortable either in our pain, status or safe zone. 
Many people have gone through horrific times beyond anyone's imagination and many have not causing a huge clash in viewpoints. 
As a result the universe is telling us we need to shake things up to move forward again. 

A firestorm is errupting and it suprises and shocks me when I see comments reflecting the questions: 

"Why are we speaking up and marching?" 
"What is the big deal?"
"What do you have to complain about?"

Victoria Steele 
shared why our Tucson Womens March on Washington is vital to our personal, family and community wellbeing

"It takes empathy to form a more perfect union"

- Victoria Steele 

In a year when Harriet Tubman made headlines to honor and acknowledge people of color, 
the fact that it feels like we are starting all over again to stand tall for our 
equal rights seems insane. 

This month is Women's History Month and we are finally free to choose and be respected for our ambitions. 

Therefore the pushback has started again. 

"There is an enormous amount of ignorance."

- Faye Wattleton 

I believe that we are undergoing another evolutionary breakthrough in our humanity and we have to step up to the plate. 
We either change and grow or go backwards and wither. 

Life is is a cycle of remembering and forgetting. 

Synergy is in action when several complimentary films are produced in the same period. This is a reflection of the universal momentum that rises subconsciously and begins through the arts first. 
Now that we have many female mentors in strong positions to create a world based on respect and accomplishment, the bully factor kicks in to fight from an old luddite mentality. 

"Is war still the only language men listen to?"

- Suffragette Movie

Why "Personal is Political"

- She is Beautiful When She is Angry

"There is no appreciation for women intellectuals"
- Miss Representation

In 2017 Stereotypes Are Still In Play

"A women in power is often seen as a negative thing."

- Pat Mitchell, Paley Center for Media, 
Variety

Messages for girls and young women have basically sucked and women themselves are still a huge part of the problem. 

Many of us did not 

“have time to be pissed,...” 

Womens March Washington - Tucson
Smyth and Jesson Media

If we do not make the time now 

when will we? 

Now is time to align with strong smart talented women and support each other's work, there is only room for collaboration. Old thinking still degrades our strength and women fall into the quick sand everyday by lack of awareness. 

Womens March Washington - Tucson 
Smyth and Jesson Media 

10 Wisdoms to Put Your Passion Into Action:

1. Pay attention before sharing anything, do a few moments of research and reflection, ask yourself and others "where does this originate from?"
2. Support other women's talents and businesses that support their families. Network where it counts.
3. Help by being there when you know a friend is caretaking a dying friend or family member. Remember that they have a ton of responsibilities that you may not have.
4. Stop playing into anything that lacks integrity for a short term gain. You will have to live with the ramifications.
5. Show up and listen to what is affecting our communities.
6. Do more for other women than "just do lunch" in women's groups.
7. Learn, be a part, listen and incorporate change.
8. Treat others with respect and empathy.
9. Collaborate with conscious communication.
10. Stop the cycle of being a victim in your own work and life just because it is the norm.

Examples for number 10: 

- I saw another comment recently to raise money for "poor broke ass_______(you fill in the blank)'. Why would that be a wise investment in a community that has been saying that same thing for decades? 

- If you observe sexism and abuse in your workplace, neighborhood or home do you speak up?

How to Start: I highly suggest journaling to get in touch with how you really feel, do more knowing and allowing for yourself and less pleasing. Pleasing is not caring, it is only a habit. Meditate on what moves your heart beyond anger. 

If you have children or are a teacher I suggest MindUp to help guide the future leaders of our world. 

"#MindUP helps children develop greater empathy and compassion for themselves and for others, through understanding different perspectives."

- Goldie Hawn, The Hawn Foundation

As one of my friends, who sadly has since passed away, 

said as her business and life motto:

"No Guts, No Glory!"  

Until Soon,
Much Moksha Guts, Jilly
@JillyWisdom @JillJessonSmyth

Transitioning

Download in June

My sacred contract is unfolding during the most ebullient time of the year, June, bursting with color and joy and protected by Danu, a Goddess of class, grace and creativity, a good friend to my mythic Goddess: "Athena of the Desert". 

Here are some June "gems" based on tradition:

The moonstone reflects and receives love and protection, the pearl symbolizes churning out impurities to gain protection and the alexandrite draws in the energy of good fortune.

When I sculpt in wood, I choose oak for it's strength, stability and power. 

Father's Day in June represents the father of all Gods, Zeus, and my father is center to my shift in awareness and growth.  

You are welcome to watch my June story that reflects the above qualities:

"TORII: The Profane to the Sacred" 




A few minutes to Knowledge that Will Help You

I will leave you with a June poem...

Soar with the Eagle and ground yourself with the Bull,

Delight your senses with summer Roses,

Rebirth your life with Honeysuckle. 

Much Moksha Love, Jilly